depress

depressing bcoz i am someone who is fear of everything, a coward who fear of trouble. a weakling who cant protect her. i am just another normal nerdy who works very hard just to earn some money so that i can pay up my commitment and sometime cant even have enough money to buy something i really like. someone who put up a smile face eventhough he is hurt within. someone who has to said ok to boss just to protect his job and reputation. someone who is not as good as her fren's boyfriend who can protect his gf in a stupid pub. i am fucking depress. i am being compared to someone who is better than me since my childhood. i am just another shadow of my brother and sister, a shadow of my best friend and a shadow of every "good boyfriend". no matter how good i am, i just someone who is not good enough. i am not a good son, i am not a good brother, i am not a good friend, i am not a good person and i am not a good boyfriend. I already can assume that in the future, i am not a good husband and i am not a good father. ok, dats all. cheers everyone.