Everyday in my life, i have to made decision on whats to eat and where to eat. I will argue with friends, my girlfriend and sometimes complaining for eating the same stuff everyday.Hahaha. It is quite irony isnt it when poor people all around this world still suffer in starvation. They will just eat anything to keep survive. This situation proved that i am a one of the lucky person in this world who live in a war free and starvation free country.
I am talking about all this crap because recently i gain a lot of weight. My perut buncit is becoming more obvious day by day. Hmm.. i kinda sad actually but never take any action to prevent it but still eat a lot of junk food and coffee. Whahahahaha. I become kinda like gluttony when suddenly something strike my attention. I saw a skinny african child on internet and started to feel guilty about it. Maybe i should start to control myself before i become really really fat. Hahahahhaha.
By the way, i miss my mom's cooking. Hehehe. I always appreciate her when she cooks for the family. My sister and brother will complaint bout how tasteless the food she prepare, but for me, her food will alwez the best. Nowaday, she is too busy to cook for us already, sobs~ i miss her cooking. (especially the porridge eventhough my father hates it)
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It is 2am already, my heart is reluctant to go for bed but my eyes and mind is giving up and all those worry about my work is still flashing in my mind. This few months maybe is the toughest ever since i step into the working nation. I have been under pressure because i am performing under the expectation. I started to lose the motivation and passion. Maybe i am still not mature enough to handle all this kind of issue and problems.
I am alwez the type that is happy go lucky. But there is too much bad stuff happens to me recently. (really a bit sueh). Bak kata orang tua tua " bagai jatuh ditimpa tangga". Even my car is giving me problems. Tayar pancit la, seat belt rosak la, engin rosak la and then kena chop by those mechanics la. Somemore my gf's birthday and christmas is near. All my savings for the present already gave to the palia mechanic. Sigh~ My friends alwez tell me to buy stuff to reward for myself for all the hardwork, but i really dont have the chances. My initial planning for buying a handphone is vanished and i have to use my sister's old and outdated phone. My dream for having a levis jeans is almost become a real dream. Sigh~ Maybe i should really learn how to organize my own financial and life. It is getting more miserable day by day.
I wanted to go travel... i want to go Bali, i want to go Europe~ i want to leave all those work behind and play as much as i can. Maybe now it seems ridiculous, but 1 day, i promise that you can see the picture of me and my gf standing in front of the eiffiel tower, smiling and posing with the "V" sign on our finger, while the scarf comfortably coiling around our neck. Hehehehe.
"Senyuman itu bagaikan titian yang membawa bahagia" - quote of the day
